a world thats not your own!!

so then wrote a long entry last night and again it never went up and got lost so thats a long entry down the drain and which i wont bother repeatingso yeh just an update things are ok

so summers almost been and gone, i have 4 weeks if that left down here and im working for all four since i need the money. things aint too bad bored but busy if ya get me lol. im bit nervous about going back up the whle not having seen mark for 2months, i love him so much i just hope he still wants to be with me and things aint changed for bad. Ive also got my own flat which is scary brought most the general things i need (i think) hence why the lack of money now so it will be counting the pennies this year i think, still i will make sure i enjoy things too. May buy some tickets for alton towers since i know how much mark wants to go there so well see.
not seen my friiends really this summer so i hope all is ok i miss them dearly and shall have to begin writing letters i think this year to keep up to date etc.
church has also been a bit of a rare occurance too so must get to church when i go to scarborough. im not sure i want to go either the next 2/3 weekends that i have got i dont feel part of there anymore. theyre good at making people feel welcome and part of the family but im now beginning to think that theyre not so good at keeping them. which is awful because i should be going for god and yet this is making me not want to go :S we shall see

best go for now woo i have missed blogging xxxxx

why do i keep going on i must be so evil. mark doesnt want to be with me by the looks. this worlds a dreadful place i hate it its cruel and cold i just dont want to be part of it any more it hurts

ive noticed my recent blog entries here have become down hearted and aint cheery and this was going to be another lol im a bit fed up had a lecture about school and im now quite worried about going now although it will be good. the other thing is i aint got nothing to do this weekend especially since marks going home (hope he has a really nice time) and im now going to be alone alot for the rest of this term. other than that things are ok